Am I a nerd,open minded person or what?

I am a girl that has long DARK hairs white skin and contacts . I am smart and I really LOVE to learn about cultures and music and people and studying( even though I do get tired). People say I look pretty with my beauty others say I am the ugliest girl in the world. People say I am a great dancer on parties and dances which I guess I am cuz I got a scholarship to dance school.Also I don't know who I am . I am that type of person who exercise and have a good time at school and gets on fit but I don't really have friends or a lover I don't know why . Am I spending too much time on myself and future?